Keeper of Keys

Back to nights I go. Its time for our 6 month switch, and I get my nights back. Thank god. I'm getting frustrated on these 24 hour shifts. I'm getting downright mean. Not to my patients, but to my partners. I did have a difficult partner this time around, which is why I haven't been writing as much as I used to. I am afraid of what I might type and to be quite honset I haven't been enjoying the job enough to really write. The frustration had taken over and made it difficult to find the interest to sit in front of my laptop and tap out a post. I hate the managing part of my new position. Sometimes on my 12 mile bike rides I think of ways to get demoted back down to crew member. The best solution I came up with was to look up porn while on duty. It's not hurting anyone, nobody dies and after a while everybody forgets about it. As long as you don't do it again. and you let you friends in on the secret (I'm not really a dirty girl, I'm just tired of being bitched at at 0130 because I put the patient on 12LPM as opposed to 15LPM via NRB masK, does 3 LPM really make that big a fucking diffrerance really?) Or maybe making out with that cute City officer in the back of the unit while on duty. Again...not hurting anyone, not killing anyone. But still against policy. I just want to come to work, pratice medicine and go home. I don't want to have to worry if my EMT partner is going to try and push Narcan on MY patient if I wasn;t there to stop them or writing evals or having to sit my paramedic crew member down and tell them that this is not how we write our reports here when they have been doing EMS since before I was born. But here I am in charge. Keeper of the keys, overseerer of medic units.