Shady's Back Y'all

with a CPTSD, Bipolar !, and the ADHD thats always been there, but now actually treated. I think I got enough natural adrinaline that I was seld medicating without knowing and I will die on that hill. You know when you leave a career, not a job, but someplace you spent a decade building relationsips, trust in your team, and the ablity to work together like a machine. Now stir in two more cups of coffee andtrust. I explained this to a cop once.

Your job is to stay safe, so you can keep me safe, so I can do my job.

I treated the cops like my medical assistant, like holding flashlights while I birthed an 8lb baby girl in complete darkness.They rushed toweard the gunshots, because one it was gunshots, but two because they knew we were there. I started this blog in 2004 and went to Tumblr in 2010. So this is the Story pf what happens after the Lights and Sirens stop and shit gets real.